When will you ever learn to stop?
Thursday, March 27, 2008 / 9:17:00 PM
It's been a while since I updated my blogspot. I was too busy updating my multiply site and posting there: blog entries, reviews, and photos. Many things happened the past few weeks: Subic trip, Manila Ocean Park trip, 2 departmental exams, 1 date. And the thing I'll never forget: tears during Holy Thursday and Good Friday.
Ok na sana eh. Ayos na lahat. But when I read the blog of the person/s involved, I can't help but be hurt. Again.
I'm trying to stop this feeling because I'm trying my best to forgive and forget. I'm trying my very best. But it seems that he/she/they doesn't/don't know how to stop.
Again, I'm doing my best to FORGIVE YOU.
So help me God. (Sana ma-apply ko ang kasabihan na past is past dito kaagad.).
******
I've been really thinking: I want to do something worthwhile this summer. And by worthwhile, that means SUMMER JOB. I've been asking different computer shops in Pampanga where I can work for two months but unfortunately, walang available.
But why do I want to work this summer instead of just doing nothing?
1. I want to earn money. Yes, I have my own savings. But I want to EARN something. Gusto ko naman madagdagan nang mas madami ang ipon ko no. Para I can buy the things that I want nang mas maaga. =)
2. I don't want to strain my eyes watching DVDs everyday. 200 at 225 na grado ng mata ko. Wala akong balak pataasin pa. Enough na sana iyon. And besides, sasakit ang ulo ko.
3. I don't want to hear my parents say "Do something.". I want to show them that I can DO something on my own.
4. Even if I watch DVDs all day and try to keep myself busy, I will still be bored. I find myself na kaagad na nabobore this past few weeks.
5. I myself will tell myself to "Do something.". Kalaban ko sarili ko sa ganitong mga bagay.
My parents know my plan. So my dad told me to apply in TeleTech Pampanga and try my luck. My mom will also try to apply there. And I was laughing my heart out while I read my dad's text message to me earlier this afternoon:
"Anak, mag apply daw kayo ni mom sa teletech pampanga sa summer. Ang kinakatakot ko lang baka ikaw matanggap si mom hindi."
Laugh trip. Hirit ng dad ko eh no. My mom also said that she thinks, I can easily adjust to call center related jobs because sanay ako magpuyat. Kaya kong hindi matulog for TWO STRAIGHT DAYS and still be awake all day and be attentive sa discussions in school. Kaya kaya ko daw ang graveyard shift. And 2 months lang naman eh.
I'm still thinking if I'll go for TeleTech. I'll just try my luck. I also want to know how far I can go. Kung hanggang saan ang kaya ko pagdating sa mga ganitong bagay. If I don't pass, ok lang. I can still think of some things to do this summer. If una pa lang na interview, bagsak na, ok lang. At least I know where I stand. If I pass, then go! Sayang ang sweldo. Sayang ang pera. Sayang ang dagdag ipon. =)
Ok na sana eh. Ayos na lahat. But when I read the blog of the person/s involved, I can't help but be hurt. Again.
I'm trying to stop this feeling because I'm trying my best to forgive and forget. I'm trying my very best. But it seems that he/she/they doesn't/don't know how to stop.
Again, I'm doing my best to FORGIVE YOU.
So help me God. (Sana ma-apply ko ang kasabihan na past is past dito kaagad.).
******
I've been really thinking: I want to do something worthwhile this summer. And by worthwhile, that means SUMMER JOB. I've been asking different computer shops in Pampanga where I can work for two months but unfortunately, walang available.
But why do I want to work this summer instead of just doing nothing?
1. I want to earn money. Yes, I have my own savings. But I want to EARN something. Gusto ko naman madagdagan nang mas madami ang ipon ko no. Para I can buy the things that I want nang mas maaga. =)
2. I don't want to strain my eyes watching DVDs everyday. 200 at 225 na grado ng mata ko. Wala akong balak pataasin pa. Enough na sana iyon. And besides, sasakit ang ulo ko.
3. I don't want to hear my parents say "Do something.". I want to show them that I can DO something on my own.
4. Even if I watch DVDs all day and try to keep myself busy, I will still be bored. I find myself na kaagad na nabobore this past few weeks.
5. I myself will tell myself to "Do something.". Kalaban ko sarili ko sa ganitong mga bagay.
My parents know my plan. So my dad told me to apply in TeleTech Pampanga and try my luck. My mom will also try to apply there. And I was laughing my heart out while I read my dad's text message to me earlier this afternoon:
"Anak, mag apply daw kayo ni mom sa teletech pampanga sa summer. Ang kinakatakot ko lang baka ikaw matanggap si mom hindi."
Laugh trip. Hirit ng dad ko eh no. My mom also said that she thinks, I can easily adjust to call center related jobs because sanay ako magpuyat. Kaya kong hindi matulog for TWO STRAIGHT DAYS and still be awake all day and be attentive sa discussions in school. Kaya kaya ko daw ang graveyard shift. And 2 months lang naman eh.
I'm still thinking if I'll go for TeleTech. I'll just try my luck. I also want to know how far I can go. Kung hanggang saan ang kaya ko pagdating sa mga ganitong bagay. If I don't pass, ok lang. I can still think of some things to do this summer. If una pa lang na interview, bagsak na, ok lang. At least I know where I stand. If I pass, then go! Sayang ang sweldo. Sayang ang pera. Sayang ang dagdag ipon. =)
Labels: emo, realizations, work
0 commentsMonday, March 17, 2008 / 3:35:00 PM
I just find it funny when people fight... sa cyberspace. Sa net.
Just read girl #1's blog entry na nagsasalita ng medyo bad kay girl #2. It's so funny kasi lagi naman sila nagkikita, almost everyday, but they chose na mag-away at magbatuhan ng opinions sa kanilang sari-sariling blogs.
Wala lang. =)
Just read girl #1's blog entry na nagsasalita ng medyo bad kay girl #2. It's so funny kasi lagi naman sila nagkikita, almost everyday, but they chose na mag-away at magbatuhan ng opinions sa kanilang sari-sariling blogs.
Wala lang. =)
Labels: laugh trip, random
0 commentsi'm not afraid...
Sunday, March 9, 2008 / 7:29:00 PM
For the past 4 years, i never dared to have a real haircut (puro trim lang at kaunting ayos). I had really long hair and lagi naka-pony. But then I decided to have a haircut.
Pinagupit ko buhok ko until sa aking shoulder. And it felt so good.
I also changed the way I put on my make-up a bit. I tried to play with my eyes. Pinagtuuanan ko ng pansin ang mata ko. And I loved the outcome. I loved it.
Being 18 is all about independence. Pwede na bumoto, pwede na mag-asawa, pwede na magsarili, pwede na gawin ang mga bagay na gustong gawin because you are now legal. But not because I'm now 18, gagawin ko na lahat ng gusto ko without thinking about the consequences and without limitations. We set our own limitations; we should know when enough is enough. I am now "old" enough to differentiate right from wrong.
Yes, I am not afraid to try new things.
But I know my limitations and I know when to stop. =)
Pinagupit ko buhok ko until sa aking shoulder. And it felt so good.
I also changed the way I put on my make-up a bit. I tried to play with my eyes. Pinagtuuanan ko ng pansin ang mata ko. And I loved the outcome. I loved it.
Being 18 is all about independence. Pwede na bumoto, pwede na mag-asawa, pwede na magsarili, pwede na gawin ang mga bagay na gustong gawin because you are now legal. But not because I'm now 18, gagawin ko na lahat ng gusto ko without thinking about the consequences and without limitations. We set our own limitations; we should know when enough is enough. I am now "old" enough to differentiate right from wrong.
Yes, I am not afraid to try new things.
But I know my limitations and I know when to stop. =)
Labels: random, realizations
0 commentsLUVTOP: umaariba at lumelebel!!!
Thursday, March 6, 2008 / 11:37:00 PM
I never expected that we will win an award; kahit nga ma-nominate, hindi ko inexpect. Not because I don't believe in my classmates' skills but because we sort of rushed this 20-minute mini-movie. This was a requirement for our STS class. KC made the story very light na lang na medyo may kaunting emo but still, isa kami sa top 3.
Umaariba... Dahil kung for example, 12 awards yun, 10 sa awards na yun, nominated ang LuvTop (or Luvtop?) including Best Supporting Actor (Huckie and Robert), Best Actor (Kuya Ian), Best Actress (Bari), etc.
Umaariba din dahil naka-relate ang mga tao sa story. They laughed when they need to laugh (because the scene is funny). They became kilig when dapat kiligin. They said "Awwwwww" nung ending na. Basta. They reacted the way we expected them to react.
Lumelebel dahil yung kasama namin sa top 3, sobrang ganda ng prinesent. You will never expect us na ma-i-level sa level nila. Ang ganda ng story, editing, sounds, lahat nila tapos kami na-level don.
Lumelebel dahil nanalo kami ng award! Best in Sounds (this includes the music that we chose for the particular scenes that we presented).
Lumelebel dahil while we were doing the movie, we were just the "shy-type-group". We did not talk about our mini-movie in public that much. We just remained silent and worked silently.
Bigla ko tuloy naalala yung Scripture sa Bible after the mini-movie presentation and awarding: Kung sino ang nagtataas sa kanyang sarili, ibinababa ng Diyos at kung sino ang nagpapakumbaba, itinataas ng Diyos.
I'm so glad kami yung latter part. =)
Congrats STSmates! You did a good job! Thanks din sa mga hindi naman namin ka-STS but helped us in making this mini-movie possible. =) Also, to those who watched. I hope we made you smile in our own little way. =)
Glory to God! 0 comments
