Love at First... Sight?
Tuesday, July 29, 2008 / 10:46:00 PM
I always question the saying "love at first sight" because I know that that is impossible. "Attraction at first sight", maybe. But not LOVE at first sight.
How can you love a person you barely even know? How can you say you love someone you just met?
Commitment requires love. Telling someone you love him/her sort of requires you to be committed. And being committed to someone in an intimate relationship is preparing yourself for marriage. So, how can you marry someone you just met?
Hay nako. Ewan.
"Love at first sight" was my topic in our impromptu speech. I was the first speaker during our practice impromptu speech (bunutan ng index cards). Then, as if fate was playing with me, I was also the first speaker in our impromptu speech. At bunutan ulit ng index cards.
I readied myself for the possibility of doing our speech today. I wore a semi-formal attire (though we are not required to wear a semi-formal attire), I wore my new open toed sandals, and I sort of applied make-up (you know, for presentation. haha).
I wanted to do my speech today. But I never wanted to be the first speaker! Pero talagang napatunayan ko: Kung ano ang ayaw mo, 'yun ang mangyayari sa 'yo. Grrrrrrrr.
I was glad that I did not bunot the "hard" topics (e.g tabloid journalism in the Philippines, etc.). I was also glad I did not get the other "easy" topics (e.g. GCness, etc.) because honestly, I don't know what to say if I picked those topics.
Our speech was supposed to last for about 5-7 minutes. But after 3 minutes, I gave up. Because love at first sight is an easy topic, I don't quite know what to say. My mind went blank.
Hay.
Di bale. I know I did better today that our practice impromptu speech because 1) my voice is not cracking, and 2) I was not that nervous.
But I am not necessarily happy with my speech.
Yes. It sucked. But my practice impromptu speech sucked more.
**********
I remembered my conversation with Kim (former PolSci but shifted to PH that's why she was delayed), my Bio lab partner (with a student number just like mine =)).
Kim: Gusto ko na magpusa (Bio 102).
Me: Gusto ko na magproper.
Kim: Oo nga noh. Feeling ko I don't belong here na sa CAS. Parang ang tanda ko na para dito. Dapat proper na tayo.
Me: Oo nga eh. Parang ate na tayo. Parang pala sa kanilang mga bago na ang CAS.
(This was not our actual conversation because I forgot the exact words that we said but still, the essence was here.)
Yes. I really don't feel I don't belong in CAS anymore. But I enjoy being in CAS. I love my classmates and group mates.
I just feel I'm too old for CAS. =')
How can you love a person you barely even know? How can you say you love someone you just met?
Commitment requires love. Telling someone you love him/her sort of requires you to be committed. And being committed to someone in an intimate relationship is preparing yourself for marriage. So, how can you marry someone you just met?
Hay nako. Ewan.
"Love at first sight" was my topic in our impromptu speech. I was the first speaker during our practice impromptu speech (bunutan ng index cards). Then, as if fate was playing with me, I was also the first speaker in our impromptu speech. At bunutan ulit ng index cards.
I readied myself for the possibility of doing our speech today. I wore a semi-formal attire (though we are not required to wear a semi-formal attire), I wore my new open toed sandals, and I sort of applied make-up (you know, for presentation. haha).
I wanted to do my speech today. But I never wanted to be the first speaker! Pero talagang napatunayan ko: Kung ano ang ayaw mo, 'yun ang mangyayari sa 'yo. Grrrrrrrr.
I was glad that I did not bunot the "hard" topics (e.g tabloid journalism in the Philippines, etc.). I was also glad I did not get the other "easy" topics (e.g. GCness, etc.) because honestly, I don't know what to say if I picked those topics.
Our speech was supposed to last for about 5-7 minutes. But after 3 minutes, I gave up. Because love at first sight is an easy topic, I don't quite know what to say. My mind went blank.
Hay.
Di bale. I know I did better today that our practice impromptu speech because 1) my voice is not cracking, and 2) I was not that nervous.
But I am not necessarily happy with my speech.
Yes. It sucked. But my practice impromptu speech sucked more.
**********
I remembered my conversation with Kim (former PolSci but shifted to PH that's why she was delayed), my Bio lab partner (with a student number just like mine =)).
Kim: Gusto ko na magpusa (Bio 102).
Me: Gusto ko na magproper.
Kim: Oo nga noh. Feeling ko I don't belong here na sa CAS. Parang ang tanda ko na para dito. Dapat proper na tayo.
Me: Oo nga eh. Parang ate na tayo. Parang pala sa kanilang mga bago na ang CAS.
(This was not our actual conversation because I forgot the exact words that we said but still, the essence was here.)
Yes. I really don't feel I don't belong in CAS anymore. But I enjoy being in CAS. I love my classmates and group mates.
I just feel I'm too old for CAS. =')
Labels: acads, realizations, UP, wish
0 commentsDefine: space
Thursday, July 24, 2008 / 10:40:00 PM
It seems we don't know how to define space. Or shall I say: We know the definition of space BUT we don't know how to put it into action... or we just don't care at all.
My previous blog entry talks about our "5 month space" to "grow up".
Now I'm letting you all decide if we are putting our "5 month space" into action.
I went to UPM today even if I have no classes because we had a group meeting for our presentation tomorrow. I had to meet up with Eph because I have to give him something (which is really important). I don't know what came to my mind but I just DRESSED UP. Naging fashionista ako today.
He was shocked when he saw me. It was not the same Lovely (harhar).
I want to go to TriNoma so he said he'll accompany me. We ate at Bigoli (?) and grabe, ang sarap ng Italian food. We really enjoyed the food.
Then we went window shopping. Well, not necessarily window shopping because I was looking for the perfect shoes that will fit my taste. After two hours, I finally found it. The first time I laid eyes on it... I was like: I WANT THAT! And when I tried it on, it fitted me perfectly.
He was so glad that I bought the open toed sandals. He liked it so much. And I love it! Nagkasundo din kami. Hahaha.
So nagbayad ako, almost spent all my money/savings just to buy that sandals (believe me, expensive talaga siya para sa isang UPM student na gaya ko). And I did not regret it.
Pauwi na kami nang biglang umulan. We had to walk sa Quiapo (hinatid niya ako hanggang sakayan). Super lakas ng ulan (I forgot my umbrella, he also forgot his). All we had was his handkerchief, which he let me use, without hesitation. Super basa kami. Pero mas basa siya.
I must admit: I had fun. SUPER.
We both had fun.
Is the "5 month space" really effective, or is it just pulling us closer together?
I think it is the latter.
My previous blog entry talks about our "5 month space" to "grow up".
Now I'm letting you all decide if we are putting our "5 month space" into action.
I went to UPM today even if I have no classes because we had a group meeting for our presentation tomorrow. I had to meet up with Eph because I have to give him something (which is really important). I don't know what came to my mind but I just DRESSED UP. Naging fashionista ako today.
He was shocked when he saw me. It was not the same Lovely (harhar).
I want to go to TriNoma so he said he'll accompany me. We ate at Bigoli (?) and grabe, ang sarap ng Italian food. We really enjoyed the food.
Then we went window shopping. Well, not necessarily window shopping because I was looking for the perfect shoes that will fit my taste. After two hours, I finally found it. The first time I laid eyes on it... I was like: I WANT THAT! And when I tried it on, it fitted me perfectly.
He was so glad that I bought the open toed sandals. He liked it so much. And I love it! Nagkasundo din kami. Hahaha.
So nagbayad ako, almost spent all my money/savings just to buy that sandals (believe me, expensive talaga siya para sa isang UPM student na gaya ko). And I did not regret it.
Pauwi na kami nang biglang umulan. We had to walk sa Quiapo (hinatid niya ako hanggang sakayan). Super lakas ng ulan (I forgot my umbrella, he also forgot his). All we had was his handkerchief, which he let me use, without hesitation. Super basa kami. Pero mas basa siya.
I must admit: I had fun. SUPER.
We both had fun.
Is the "5 month space" really effective, or is it just pulling us closer together?
I think it is the latter.
Labels: eph
0 commentsHonesty
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 / 2:18:00 PM
That was my topic during our practice impromptu speech last Friday.
My heart was beating like crazy while I waited for my turn. My voice was cracking, as if I was about to cry. I don't think I'll ever get used to seeing people looking at me while speaking.
I can say that my speech had a lot of content; it's just that I had disorganized thoughts kasi nga impromptu.
Much can be said about honesty. But do we really, really know how to be honest? Yes, we know what honesty means. Yes, we know how honesty works. But do we really know how to make it work? Do we really value honesty?
I don't find it hard to be honest with what I'm feeling. If I'm happy, I let people know. If I'm sad, I let people know. If I'm hurt, I let people know.
Being in a relationship for four years requires a lot of work. But there are times that we somehow need space: space to breathe, and space to grow. For me, this is not a bad thing. It's the best thing to do to make a relationship work. It's the best way to make someone miss you. It's the best way to learn not to be dependent on each other. It's the best way to let each other know how much you value each other.
Being honest is a choice. You can be honest and say what you're thinking or you can pretend that everything is OK even if you know that it's not. We can be honest if we want to.
We both chose to be honest.
(I'm starting to miss him.)
I don't know how long this "space thing" will last (napag-usapan naming 5 months, before the end of the year. But believe me, it will never happen. Hahaha. 5 months? Nah. Hindi namin kakayanin. Kami pa? Hahaha). But it's a good thing we did it.
Click the "refresh" button.
Why do we refresh? We refresh because we know there's something wrong with the page that's why we reload it to correct what's wrong. Most of the time, after "refreshing", the page is now right, the page is now complete.
We sometimes need to refresh... To correct our mistakes...
Have a break! Have a KitKat.
So nag-blab lang talaga ako sa entry na ito.
My heart was beating like crazy while I waited for my turn. My voice was cracking, as if I was about to cry. I don't think I'll ever get used to seeing people looking at me while speaking.
I can say that my speech had a lot of content; it's just that I had disorganized thoughts kasi nga impromptu.
Much can be said about honesty. But do we really, really know how to be honest? Yes, we know what honesty means. Yes, we know how honesty works. But do we really know how to make it work? Do we really value honesty?
I don't find it hard to be honest with what I'm feeling. If I'm happy, I let people know. If I'm sad, I let people know. If I'm hurt, I let people know.
Being in a relationship for four years requires a lot of work. But there are times that we somehow need space: space to breathe, and space to grow. For me, this is not a bad thing. It's the best thing to do to make a relationship work. It's the best way to make someone miss you. It's the best way to learn not to be dependent on each other. It's the best way to let each other know how much you value each other.
Being honest is a choice. You can be honest and say what you're thinking or you can pretend that everything is OK even if you know that it's not. We can be honest if we want to.
We both chose to be honest.
(I'm starting to miss him.)
I don't know how long this "space thing" will last (napag-usapan naming 5 months, before the end of the year. But believe me, it will never happen. Hahaha. 5 months? Nah. Hindi namin kakayanin. Kami pa? Hahaha). But it's a good thing we did it.
**********
Click the "refresh" button.
Why do we refresh? We refresh because we know there's something wrong with the page that's why we reload it to correct what's wrong. Most of the time, after "refreshing", the page is now right, the page is now complete.
We sometimes need to refresh... To correct our mistakes...
**********
Have a break! Have a KitKat.
So nag-blab lang talaga ako sa entry na ito.
Labels: blah, random, realizations
0 commentsTouch me once again...
Monday, July 21, 2008 / 11:19:00 AM
How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing.
- lyrics from the song How Can I Keep From Singing (by Chris Tomlin)
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands.
-lyrics from the song You're my Healer/Healer (by Planet Shakers)
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing.
- lyrics from the song How Can I Keep From Singing (by Chris Tomlin)
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands.
-lyrics from the song You're my Healer/Healer (by Planet Shakers)
I just kept crying and crying while listening to these songs.
Just when I thought that there's no hope...
He touched me. A touch that I'll never forget. A touch that is definitely life changing.
I love God... And I'm not ashamed to say it. 0 comments
Everything changes?!
Saturday, July 19, 2008 / 11:06:00 PM
People say that everything changes. I disagree.
Organic Chemistry doesn't change. It still sucks.
Yeah. I answered most of the questions (just like before) and I am confident enough that my answers were correct (yabang! bahala na si Lord), but still, Organic Chemistry never fails to give me those headaches.
After the exam, I rewarded myself by buying a cheap chocolate and a Dutch Mill (I'm really loving yogurt now).
My next exam is on August9 (Bio lec). So I might as well make the most out of my days before my exams.
Even if there are times that I think I should let go, I can't. Because I know, we were meant for each other. 0 comments
Organic Chemistry doesn't change. It still sucks.
Yeah. I answered most of the questions (just like before) and I am confident enough that my answers were correct (yabang! bahala na si Lord), but still, Organic Chemistry never fails to give me those headaches.
After the exam, I rewarded myself by buying a cheap chocolate and a Dutch Mill (I'm really loving yogurt now).
My next exam is on August9 (Bio lec). So I might as well make the most out of my days before my exams.
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Even if there are times that I think I should let go, I can't. Because I know, we were meant for each other. 0 comments
Fay-Na-Li
Tuesday, July 15, 2008 / 8:09:00 PM
I now have a copy of John Grogan's Marley and Me! Weeeee! And... it's discounted! P345.00 ang nakalagay sa likod ng book but when I paid for it, it was only P299.00! Yey!
I think I did good in my Bio lab exam this afternoon. Thank you Lord!!!
** Ganito pala ang feeling ng seller na hindi napapansin ang binebenta mo. **
** Ganito pala ang feeling ng nabebenta ang binebenta mo!!! =D **
I think I did good in my Bio lab exam this afternoon. Thank you Lord!!!
** Ganito pala ang feeling ng nabebenta ang binebenta mo!!! =D **
Labels: random
0 commentsWala akong pinatatamaan, OK?
Sunday, July 13, 2008 / 2:16:00 PM
Wala akong particular na taong pinatatamaan sa entry na ito. Maybe na-"inspire" ako sa isang tao sa pagsusulat ng entry na ito but this entry is for everyone. So if may natamaan man, maybe you're guilty of it at karapat-dapat kang tamaan.
For me, if talagang totoo ang sinasabi mo, why flaunt it? I mean, why let people know na ang yaman yaman ng isang tao, na ang mahal mahal ng mga gamit ng isang tao, na napakaperfect ng buhay ng isang tao... Why? If totoo yun, why do you have to tell that to other people? Kasi, if talagang totoo yun, people will see it without you flaunting it. People will notice it, kahit hindi mo man sabihin. People will notice it, kahit tahimik ka lang.
So bakit may mga taong super yabang sa mga bagay na mayroon sila, or sa estado ng buhay nila? Dahil hindi yun totoo. In the first place, why do you have to say, "Mayaman kami eh! Kaya kaya naming blah blah blah!!". Ang hirap i-explain eh. Pero bakit? Who cares if mayaman ka? Who cares if ganyan ang estado ng buhay mo?
Madami akong kilalang mayayaman, yung TOTOONG MAYAYAMAN. And guess what: they don't tell people that mayaman sila. Because it shows. And they are humble and mature enough not to flaunt it.
Bakit madaming taong nagfefeeling? Nagfefeeling masaya kahit hindi naman, pinapakita na masaya kahit hindi naman, pinapakita na kontento sa buhay kahit hindi naman, nagfefeeling mayaman kahit hindi naman talaga. Bakit hindi maging totoo ang isang tao sa katayuan niya? Does this prove na PLASTIC tayong mga tao? Does this prove that kinakahiya natin ang sarili natin kaya we sometimes pretend? Why can't people just be themselves?
Why? Dahil takot sila na 'pag hindi sila mayaman, hindi sila tatanggapin ng mga tao. Takot sila na 'pag nalaman ng mga taong hindi naman talaga sila masaya sa nangyayari sa buhay nila, maririnig nila ang mga salitang ayaw nila marinig dahil alam nilang tama. Takot sila na iwanan sila ng mga taong kino-consider nilang friends 'pag nalaman nila ang totoo.
Siguro, TAKOT nga ang dahilan ng lahat ng pagkukunwari ng mga tao.
Takot na masaktan. Takot na maiwanan. Takot na masabihan ng mga bagay na alam naman nilang tama. Takot magpakita ng nararamdaman. Takot malaman ang totoo. Takot malaman ng iba ang totoo. TAKOT MAGPAKATOTOO.
Ako? Hindi ako takot. Hindi ako takot maiwanan ng mga taong hindi tanggap ang totoong ako. Kaysa naman hayaan kong mag-rule ang takot ko. Kaysa naman maging plastic ako, ipakita sa iba ang alam ko namang hindi ako. Mas gugustuhin ko pa na kaunti ang nagmamahal sa totoong ako, kaysa sa maraming nagmamahal sa hindi totoong ako.
Siguro, napakaganda ng mundo kung lahat ng tao ay totoo.
Siguro, napakaganda ng mundo kung wala tayong pretensions.
Siguro, napakaganda ng mundo kung tayo mismo, tanggap natin ang sarili natin.
Kailan kaya mangyayari 'yun?
For me, if talagang totoo ang sinasabi mo, why flaunt it? I mean, why let people know na ang yaman yaman ng isang tao, na ang mahal mahal ng mga gamit ng isang tao, na napakaperfect ng buhay ng isang tao... Why? If totoo yun, why do you have to tell that to other people? Kasi, if talagang totoo yun, people will see it without you flaunting it. People will notice it, kahit hindi mo man sabihin. People will notice it, kahit tahimik ka lang.
So bakit may mga taong super yabang sa mga bagay na mayroon sila, or sa estado ng buhay nila? Dahil hindi yun totoo. In the first place, why do you have to say, "Mayaman kami eh! Kaya kaya naming blah blah blah!!". Ang hirap i-explain eh. Pero bakit? Who cares if mayaman ka? Who cares if ganyan ang estado ng buhay mo?
Madami akong kilalang mayayaman, yung TOTOONG MAYAYAMAN. And guess what: they don't tell people that mayaman sila. Because it shows. And they are humble and mature enough not to flaunt it.
Bakit madaming taong nagfefeeling? Nagfefeeling masaya kahit hindi naman, pinapakita na masaya kahit hindi naman, pinapakita na kontento sa buhay kahit hindi naman, nagfefeeling mayaman kahit hindi naman talaga. Bakit hindi maging totoo ang isang tao sa katayuan niya? Does this prove na PLASTIC tayong mga tao? Does this prove that kinakahiya natin ang sarili natin kaya we sometimes pretend? Why can't people just be themselves?
Why? Dahil takot sila na 'pag hindi sila mayaman, hindi sila tatanggapin ng mga tao. Takot sila na 'pag nalaman ng mga taong hindi naman talaga sila masaya sa nangyayari sa buhay nila, maririnig nila ang mga salitang ayaw nila marinig dahil alam nilang tama. Takot sila na iwanan sila ng mga taong kino-consider nilang friends 'pag nalaman nila ang totoo.
Siguro, TAKOT nga ang dahilan ng lahat ng pagkukunwari ng mga tao.
Takot na masaktan. Takot na maiwanan. Takot na masabihan ng mga bagay na alam naman nilang tama. Takot magpakita ng nararamdaman. Takot malaman ang totoo. Takot malaman ng iba ang totoo. TAKOT MAGPAKATOTOO.
Ako? Hindi ako takot. Hindi ako takot maiwanan ng mga taong hindi tanggap ang totoong ako. Kaysa naman hayaan kong mag-rule ang takot ko. Kaysa naman maging plastic ako, ipakita sa iba ang alam ko namang hindi ako. Mas gugustuhin ko pa na kaunti ang nagmamahal sa totoong ako, kaysa sa maraming nagmamahal sa hindi totoong ako.
Siguro, napakaganda ng mundo kung lahat ng tao ay totoo.
Siguro, napakaganda ng mundo kung wala tayong pretensions.
Siguro, napakaganda ng mundo kung tayo mismo, tanggap natin ang sarili natin.
Kailan kaya mangyayari 'yun?
Labels: realizations
0 commentsKawaii madness
Thursday, July 10, 2008 / 3:52:00 PM
For almost an hour, naghahanap ako ng Kawaii skins for my blogspot site. Yes there were many, about 380. But I can't choose anything that suites to my "taste." So I decided to settle for this skin which I find so cute.
May exam pa ako bukas. Isama mo pa ang reporting. Buti na lang madali lang ang reporting. Osmosis.
Ipriprint ko na nga irereport ko. But before that.... I will look for a new friendster skin. Sana may cute na Kawaii. Hehehe.
May exam pa ako bukas. Isama mo pa ang reporting. Buti na lang madali lang ang reporting. Osmosis.
Ipriprint ko na nga irereport ko. But before that.... I will look for a new friendster skin. Sana may cute na Kawaii. Hehehe.
Labels: random
0 commentsTime flies...
Friday, July 4, 2008 / 9:02:00 PM
Schedule of Exams:
Friday - Post lab exam and post lab reporting
Saturday - Bio lec dept
Tuesday - Bio lab dept
Next Friday - Chem lec dept
Oh my. Time really flies. I was still adjusting to my schedule when all of a sudden, my professors said that we will have our dept exams next week. OH MY!
Well, I'm a bit ready for Bio. I really really enjoy it. Chem? I now love it (but I don't think I'm that ready)! Thanks to Sir Villarante!!! Yes. I'm now a student of Villarante.
Sir Rubidillo talked to me last Tuesday and asked me if I was comfortable with my Intarmed classmates. So I told the truth: NO. So he said that if I want, I can attend Sir Villarante's 10am class. I just need to tell Sir Villarante that I'm Sir Rubidillo's student. I don't have to attend Sir Rubidillo's class anymore. Yehey!!! Goodbye Intarmed!!! Hello... BIOCHEM???
Oh no! BIOCHEM!!!
But Biochem is way better than Intarmed. Another plus: AJ is my classmate!!! We are not the only nonblocks there.
As for the discussion, I understand Sir Villarante's discussion more that Sir Rubidillo's. Maybe because in Sir Rubidillo's class, discussion is so fast because my classmates are Intarmed. In Sir Villarante's, he takes time in discussing the concepts and giving LOTS of examples. He even discussed resonance AGAIN when he found out that we still don't get it.
Honestly, I am learning more in Sir Villarante's class than Ma'am Yao's class then. Don't get me wrong. Ma'am Yao is great. I just don't know why I'm learning in Sir Villarante more. I don't know if me repeating Org Chem is a factor.
All I know is, when I am in my Org Chem class, I actually enjoy it. 0 comments
Friday - Post lab exam and post lab reporting
Saturday - Bio lec dept
Tuesday - Bio lab dept
Next Friday - Chem lec dept
Oh my. Time really flies. I was still adjusting to my schedule when all of a sudden, my professors said that we will have our dept exams next week. OH MY!
Well, I'm a bit ready for Bio. I really really enjoy it. Chem? I now love it (but I don't think I'm that ready)! Thanks to Sir Villarante!!! Yes. I'm now a student of Villarante.
Sir Rubidillo talked to me last Tuesday and asked me if I was comfortable with my Intarmed classmates. So I told the truth: NO. So he said that if I want, I can attend Sir Villarante's 10am class. I just need to tell Sir Villarante that I'm Sir Rubidillo's student. I don't have to attend Sir Rubidillo's class anymore. Yehey!!! Goodbye Intarmed!!! Hello... BIOCHEM???
Oh no! BIOCHEM!!!
But Biochem is way better than Intarmed. Another plus: AJ is my classmate!!! We are not the only nonblocks there.
As for the discussion, I understand Sir Villarante's discussion more that Sir Rubidillo's. Maybe because in Sir Rubidillo's class, discussion is so fast because my classmates are Intarmed. In Sir Villarante's, he takes time in discussing the concepts and giving LOTS of examples. He even discussed resonance AGAIN when he found out that we still don't get it.
Honestly, I am learning more in Sir Villarante's class than Ma'am Yao's class then. Don't get me wrong. Ma'am Yao is great. I just don't know why I'm learning in Sir Villarante more. I don't know if me repeating Org Chem is a factor.
All I know is, when I am in my Org Chem class, I actually enjoy it. 0 comments
Greenpeace's plea...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008 / 9:41:00 PM
